on the
outside. i swallow it.
inside a bottle and then
me. i am nearly. i can't take
all the talking. talking.
so i shift my center to
the bottle. and swallow it.
swallowing locates me.
in the throat. there is extra.
making me. i am found.
i am barely. i haven't been outside.
in days. what it see. dissolves.
in my stomach. comes out. of my mouth.
anymore. i am more. myself.
while swallowing. my voice. comes out.
of my mouth and goes.
into the phone. he says. goodbye.
i have said something. to make him.
say this. he knows i'm. here.
because of my voice. through a tube.
if i forget. to swallow it. i will be.
the center of me. outside.
i must take it. i can't
take. going outside. i have been.
crying. mostly water. put something back.
i have too much. levels rise. two weeks. later i tell him.
anymore. it makes me stop.
being unable. to go outside. stopping and.
starting. someone. i can't stop.
moving. hands follow.
the rest of my body. follows
the pill down. my
throat. making.